Fear

"Fear gets its power from our not looking, at either the fear or what we are afraid of." Mark Nepo

Nepo goes on to say that this fear can be of love, truth, or even death.  I have found fear to be something I feel in regards to caregiving.  Fear he will fall, fear he will not be lucid, fear of his significant confusion.  In a recent talk he was so confused and not in reality --- there was fear that this might be the new norm for us, but it turned out to be a particularly significant period of not being lucid.  As Lewy Bodies Dementia progresses, probably these periods of not being lucid will become more severe.  Perhaps.  And yet all we have is today, and all we can do is face what today brings.