4 Months Today

"Grieving is a process." author

It is 4 months today since Dwane's death.  I still think of him and catch myself wanting to tell him something or take something to him that I know he liked.  And, then I remember.  Of course, he is dead.  Grieving is a process.  The person we loved is never gone from our memory, but we do get more and more used to being alone.  Of course, to outsiders it might look as if I have been on my own for many years -- as the dementia claimed more and more of him; but, there was still a connection, an intimacy -- even to the end.  That's what I miss.