Aug 20, 2009
Two people have said to me recently that they did not know Dwane's decline was as much as it is. That has caused me to wonder if I am in denial or not forthcoming, and I don't think so. A spiritual reading this morning said, "Whenever things go monstrously wrong, the first casualty is always hope." I think that is true. I see clearly what we are dealing with; I know it is progressive and noncurable (at this point medically); and I consciously choose not to think about or talk about it very much. Because I need hope, and because I believe that what I focus on is what will increase and/or be consuming. I want to focus on what is good in our lives, and that is plentifold. I think it is a fine line for both Dwane and me to acknowledge his diagnosis with candidness, while focusing on what is right and good and positive.